Breakfast was hard and was a little more drawn out than meals have been for the past week. We went almost the full 2 hours but she was eating the entire time. Chewing very slowly. She puts her food into tiny sections on her plate and eats each section very slowly. It drives her dad bonkers but I understand it. It's still a sense of controlling how much she's eating just not in the long run. In the moment it's about eating "how much" at a time. But she ate everything and that's what counts. She actually turned down the shake and said "Mom I can't live the rest of my life on smoothies I want to be able to eat food like 'real' people"


Nic is going to see her psychiatrist in a few hours and we're seeing her nutritionist at 3. I'm going to go to her school during her psych visit to see if something can't be done about the girls who sent her nasty texts messages. I had to turn the power on her phone off on Friday because I didn't want to read anymore of the crap. Nic is very sensitive to things people say and is always hyper vigilant about what people are thinking of her and if people like her.

Every spoonful is defeat. Every bite is medicine.