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Im tired and sick, fever chills the works. Tim took care of dinner tonight and ive been dozing. Apparently Nic threw her entire dinner across the kitchen and put her head on the table and just cried that she was sorry My heart aches for her. I just want to wave a wand over her:( I don't know how I slept through it. I wish I would've been up. No, I take that back. I just wish I knew exactly what was said or what all went on but Tim handled it really well and she volunteered to clean it up and told her dad " i just don't know who to trust anymore" Not sure what that means or who it's about or what. Tim isn't sure either and probably left out half of the conversation. I love him so much but listening is not a strong suit for him. Either way Tim said she finished dinner in 1 hr and 39 minutes including her fit. So that's a step in the right direction.

Anyway here's how our day went. Too tired to retype it all so copy/paste do your magic

Meeting with the treatment team went amazingly well. Hubby and I are very satisfied with their support and advice. We now have a plan!!! I feel like we have a road (although bumpy) to follow. No more shots in the dark

It's pretty similar to what we did last night except last night I had no idea what to do when she wouldn't eat! The whole treatment team is in agreement with a Court Order for In-Patient treatment after 3 non compliant meals. She has therapy with her old therapist once a week, psych every other week, weigh ins once a week with the nutritionist and every other week we will go with for meal planning. She's lost 1.8 pounds but the nutritionist said not to worry about it because what she's eaten this week won't be gained as actual weight until next week.

The nutritionist also added in 1 boost plus a day since Nic said Nope im lactose intolerant. After hearing Boost. Well sugar pie Boost Plus is lactose free I already know the boost will be hard. We are restricting incoming/outgoing calls and incoming texts on her phone. We're leaving outgoing texts on so that she can text dad and I. < Dad and I decided on this because we are worried about her leaving. No driving no outings without me or dad for now. No chances of wrecking a 3rd car.

Dad had a major slip of the tongue on the way home when Nic screamed about us treating her like a child. Dad said not to act like one. Way wrong thing to say. Nic said she didn't want to be like this and would rather be dead than be anorexic. Ripped my heart to hear it. So I asked if she was feeling suicidal and if she'd like to go to the hospital to be safe and she said no. So i'm really going to keep a close eye on her.

Her psych wants to put her back on Anti-depressants after she has gained at least 20 pounds. He doesn't want to put her back on now because she's malnourished and could react poorly physically and he wouldn't be able to give her an adequate dosage without risking overdose or not giving her a high enough dose.


I so wish I had an understanding family to discuss this all with. It gets frustrating. I wish I could call them up and tell them about progress or setbacks. They are all so stuck in thinking "It's for attention" or "Just tell her she's thin and pretty" They all drive me bonkers. Can't choose family though, that's what friends are for. The chosen family.

Now for the amusing part of the meeting. When Nic's therapist was trying to explain electrolyte imbalances and brain chemistry to hubby he kept squinting and saying "uh huh, oh i see, right" < this I have learned is code for "I am trying so hard to understand you but I have no idea what you're talking about." I was trying to contain my laughter. Poor guy. After she explained he just said "Now with all of what you just said, eating will make it all the way it's supposed to be? Or do I have to remember what you just told me? I'm confused." I about died.


-Kathleen